Seek and you will find

Seek and you will find they say. Let's see: - I have seek professional success and what have I found: headaches, little victories, envy, big losses, lack of time to be with friends and family and lack of time for myself - I have seek love in many ways and what have I found: broken hearts, people hurt, people who rather see me dead than alive, hate, sorrow and in the middle of it, glimpses of happyness. Passion is supposed to give place to love. In my case, always gave place to boredom and all the trouble that comes with it. I seek love and I always find a fucking Pandora box. - I have seek friendship and what I have found: true friends, honest I must be. People who have gave their hands when I needed. But I've also found people who actually don't give a shit about what you think, and hang around you for some stupid reason they found interesting. - I have seek the building family stereotype to myself and what I have found: tons of lies, hunger (yes I managed to get poor at the time), true sadness, very hard times to beat. I got out of the shithole but heck, I've lost literally years of life in the process. I have a beautiful daughter who taught me what real love is: something pure, simple and serene where nothing or no one can tear apart. I have found true happyness in that child smile. A reason to live definitely. - I have seek admiration and what have I found: jack shit that is. I believe that one day I could be seriously grandious (professionaly speaking). Like Cat Power song, "Once I wanted to be the greatest" That's me. I think one day I'll be the greatest. But what do I find? A lots of competition, people afraid of you, people trying to make your life hard, people trying to deceive you. Once you're a threat it's fucked up to get up there. Well, life is a fucked up thing, but has stuff worth living.